So I've been keeping this updated right? Not so much.
Life has just been so touch and go. So up and down. In and out.....anymore cliche examples needed?
But seriously. Joe is getting ready to leave for Basic Training. Which means Isaac and I are pretty much on our own for 8 weeks. We will do some traveling. And visiting family. And then we will see Joe at his graduation in San Antonio, Texas. We'll be there at the end of May. After that we have 10 more weeks to go without him. I never pictured spending that much time without the love of my life, on my wedding day. But when certain life goals change...you learn to roll with the punches. Right? I'm so proud of him. I know it is going to be so much harder on him, as Isaac and I will have each other and family around in the midst of our traveling. But he will be knee deep in training and DI's. It is the beginning of a new chapter in our life. I am excited. But definitely nervous.
Dear Diary,
I promise I will have a more exciting blog when this BMT stuff is over and life is more settled.
K.
An update, of sorts
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Already doing a fabulous job at keeping this blog updated, obviously. Agh. I just don't feel like I have the energy or inspiration to sit and write anything that people would be interested in reading at the end of a long day.
But life is still happening every day, clearly.
Joe had his 60 day briefing today. 60 days! Whoa, reality check. 60 days is definitely very far out. 18 weeks without my beloved?? I thought I had more time to come to terms with it. Isaac without his Daddy for that long? Except for Graduation obviously, at the 8 week mark. Joe is going to do fabulous. Isaac and I are going to be just fine. We'll just miss him, terribly.
Isaac is on the go, every waking hour. I believe, to my core, that this child internally wishes that there were more hours in a day for him to dash about the house and explore cabinets, off limit areas, and who knows what else. It's taking time to adjust to doing daily chores while intervening with him...but I know it can be done. I mean, if we expect to have any more children it MUST be done. Right? Right. Atleast when more little ones come along they will be able to enjoy each others company and entertain each other instead of getting into everything in the house. Ha! Or hit multiple areas at ONE time....that's more realistic. But I can't wait :) I have had MAD baby fever lately. With little Gavin being born to Jess and Beau. He is so beautiful. I love the newness and wonder of a brand new child. It makes my heart go pitter pat and my uterus wriggle inside of me while screaming WHEN?? WHEN?? Soon. End of the year soon. If we're so blessed of course.
I'm still planning on taking that 4 week CNA course while Joe is gone at BMT. I just have to work something out with child care that I am comfortable with. We'll see how it works out.
So there is a minor update. It's late. And Joe has to work tomorrow so no sleeping in for Mama!
Bed Time :)
But life is still happening every day, clearly.
Joe had his 60 day briefing today. 60 days! Whoa, reality check. 60 days is definitely very far out. 18 weeks without my beloved?? I thought I had more time to come to terms with it. Isaac without his Daddy for that long? Except for Graduation obviously, at the 8 week mark. Joe is going to do fabulous. Isaac and I are going to be just fine. We'll just miss him, terribly.
Isaac is on the go, every waking hour. I believe, to my core, that this child internally wishes that there were more hours in a day for him to dash about the house and explore cabinets, off limit areas, and who knows what else. It's taking time to adjust to doing daily chores while intervening with him...but I know it can be done. I mean, if we expect to have any more children it MUST be done. Right? Right. Atleast when more little ones come along they will be able to enjoy each others company and entertain each other instead of getting into everything in the house. Ha! Or hit multiple areas at ONE time....that's more realistic. But I can't wait :) I have had MAD baby fever lately. With little Gavin being born to Jess and Beau. He is so beautiful. I love the newness and wonder of a brand new child. It makes my heart go pitter pat and my uterus wriggle inside of me while screaming WHEN?? WHEN?? Soon. End of the year soon. If we're so blessed of course.
I'm still planning on taking that 4 week CNA course while Joe is gone at BMT. I just have to work something out with child care that I am comfortable with. We'll see how it works out.
So there is a minor update. It's late. And Joe has to work tomorrow so no sleeping in for Mama!
Bed Time :)
Of life and duty
Friday, January 9, 2009
I can see it is going to be difficult for me to blog regularly. It's been over a week.
It isn't that I don't THINK about it. I do. It's just that I have SO much that I want to get "out" that I feel a post will end up being completely random and skip around so much that no one would be interested in reading. Loss of interest would happen early on.
I think there's just so much going on in my head, that I have no way to organize it. But at the forefront, March 31st looms. What will I do? How will I be a "single parent" essentially? How will I be a good mother while missing my wonderful, loving husband desperately. Better figure it out. Because the world we are entering, does not ask questions like that first.
People have been asking me how Joe is holding up as his active duty date gets more real. Well, he made this decision. He initiated this life change. He is EXCITED! When one spouse/family member/significant other makes a decision to commit his life and rights to the Military, where does that leave everyone else? For all intensive purposes I will focus this point on the Miltary Spouse. Wife or Husband. I wholeheartedly believe that we are called to duty as well. We must understand that the Military and their orders come first. There is no "oh maybe I can just get of this trip" or "I'll see what I can do". "They" are the be all end all.
So when a spouse leaves, for training, deployment...anything. Why is it that the spouse and the duty that they are left with falls to the wayside? They are the ones raising the kids for the time being. Handling the homefront. Making sure things stay even and settled while the spouse/mommy/daddy is doing their job. No matter how far away that job takes them. In my opinion that deserves some respect too. No, it isn't the same. But that doesn't mean it isn't difficult, or important. I definitely don't mean to downplay or cast a shadow on the responsibility and importance of the spouse that serves in the military. They have the hardest job of all. I just feel like as people inquire about what we are about to do, they seem to forget that there is a wife, and a child involved as well.
With what I am about to embark on, I have a feeling I will gain a new respect for spouses that spend months, and years apart from their loves. And have to answer the questions to their children about why Daddy or Mommy isn't there again, for whatever event is going on. Even if it is just a relaxed Saturday afternoon.
But with all of that weight, and stress. Comes great pride. A pride that when thought about, already moves me to quiet tears.
I'm excited to become part of this world. But that does not mean that I take this "duty" lightly.
It isn't that I don't THINK about it. I do. It's just that I have SO much that I want to get "out" that I feel a post will end up being completely random and skip around so much that no one would be interested in reading. Loss of interest would happen early on.
I think there's just so much going on in my head, that I have no way to organize it. But at the forefront, March 31st looms. What will I do? How will I be a "single parent" essentially? How will I be a good mother while missing my wonderful, loving husband desperately. Better figure it out. Because the world we are entering, does not ask questions like that first.
People have been asking me how Joe is holding up as his active duty date gets more real. Well, he made this decision. He initiated this life change. He is EXCITED! When one spouse/family member/significant other makes a decision to commit his life and rights to the Military, where does that leave everyone else? For all intensive purposes I will focus this point on the Miltary Spouse. Wife or Husband. I wholeheartedly believe that we are called to duty as well. We must understand that the Military and their orders come first. There is no "oh maybe I can just get of this trip" or "I'll see what I can do". "They" are the be all end all.
So when a spouse leaves, for training, deployment...anything. Why is it that the spouse and the duty that they are left with falls to the wayside? They are the ones raising the kids for the time being. Handling the homefront. Making sure things stay even and settled while the spouse/mommy/daddy is doing their job. No matter how far away that job takes them. In my opinion that deserves some respect too. No, it isn't the same. But that doesn't mean it isn't difficult, or important. I definitely don't mean to downplay or cast a shadow on the responsibility and importance of the spouse that serves in the military. They have the hardest job of all. I just feel like as people inquire about what we are about to do, they seem to forget that there is a wife, and a child involved as well.
With what I am about to embark on, I have a feeling I will gain a new respect for spouses that spend months, and years apart from their loves. And have to answer the questions to their children about why Daddy or Mommy isn't there again, for whatever event is going on. Even if it is just a relaxed Saturday afternoon.
But with all of that weight, and stress. Comes great pride. A pride that when thought about, already moves me to quiet tears.
I'm excited to become part of this world. But that does not mean that I take this "duty" lightly.
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